sontlesmotsquivont:

rattlingbones:

yourmiser:

Peter Bjorn and John, Young Folks

blua:

Creep | Radiohead

I want you to notice when I’m not around

Right when everything was falling into a perfect rhythm something gets fucked up. I’m worried too. I wish I knew what was going on. Oh the downfalls of caring for someone.

Dear school, I hate you. I hate the nights before a school day. And now there’s 5 of them again. I’d much rather spend tonight out later than I should be, doing things I shouldn’t be doing, at places I shouldn’t be at, with kids I always should be with.

But nooooo. I get to spend tonight studying, showering, and sleeping.

I just want to repeat last night for a long long time.

Also, there was a zombie, an abandoned house, a roller coaster, and repeated rounds around the roundabout. I love tonight.

I Miss You went through so many thought trains tonight.
First was the typical whine whine I miss Travis. It didn’t last long, but I do miss the times before I realized his true being. I wouldn’t mind going back to those blissful days.
Second was how lovely it would be if this boy from far away could actually mean something to me. He tells me so hard that I mean so much to him but I simply don’t believe in that.
Third was how it sucks that the boy I like, sitting in front of me, was probably going through the first thought train and missing his ex like he always does and how pretty and heartfelt and perfect that song is.
Lastly, and my favorite was the love in front of me in the couple sitting ontop of each other. I am so jealous of their love, but I think it is perfect and just being with them makes me happier too. I love them.
I don’t even know, this song is just perfect and I want to be in the moment where I thought all of this and the wind was numbing my face.

There was a moment tonight, the five of us crammed into a tiny red truck, speeding down a hill, blasting I Miss You, with the wind numbing our faces. Just in that moment, I would have been okay with dying. It was beautiful, I don’t even know.

1. I was kidnapped by someone who had been in love and wtahcing me since I was a little kid (thank you, Fringe.) He took me to another world, like Abarat, and he wasn’t at all cruel and it was actually a very nice kidnapping.

2. I was with everyone from the past week and for some reason we were at an apartment with my brother and their bathroom was actually a rocket ship and we were all going to my brothers house on the rocket ship, but then someone drugged someones drink and we couldn’t go anymore.

3. I wrote about dream #1 for creative writing and it was being workshopped. Except fallon, robby, greg, dorian, and sam were also in creative writing. And sam had saved me from the kidnapper and it was awkward.

JR, though I love you for your jokes and obnoxiousness, we haven’t talked in over two weeks, can we please have a conversation without you calling me a nigger, telling me to shut the fuck up, and how much you hate me? We surely are dysfunctional, but it was great talking to you again, just like always. I am super glad we will get to hang out soon, even if it will become another ploy to make me angry and jealous because apparently I “think you’re the cutest and want to marry you.” Ily bff

but really, the past week has been loads of greatness, I don’t want to return to school and not having a house to myself.

I am thankful for Selene Capparelli and Alex Smith and all that awkwardness. I am thankful for the nights at Brewsters, peach ice cream, sneaking into Godby, hanging out with Beth.

I am thankful for drunken Matt Purvis and his singing and saving Mya and I. I am thankful for Wal-Mart at 3 a.m.

I am thankful for houses that aren’t mine and dogs that aren’t mine and being on a spaceship last night and Austin burning the rug and tension and hilarity and repeated arguments and little kids and laughing.

I am so thankful for laughing.

I am so thankful for everyone who has been in my life.

I am thankful for Mr. Lamee and school and stars and my fascination with space. I am thankful for Mrs. Sperling essentially being my grandmother.

I am thankful for my dad and how he misses me after a week and can’t even comprehend what it will be like when I am in college and move out.

I am thankful for cute boys who make me laugh.

I am thankful mostly for my bestfriends and being alive. I couldn’t have one without the other.